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Forum Raves, let your steam out| Nikku |
Posted: August 20, 2006 04:46 am
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 Mr. Coke  Group: Old BB:S Betatesters Posts: 3114 Joined: December 12, 2004  |
pinch his neck coma pinch style, only oonce side tho, dont want to kill him. oh yeah and punch him in the nose -------------------- Only when you gick, will you truly fish...
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| Security Corporate |
Posted: October 07, 2006 02:40 am
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Gore God of Massacre Group: Old BB:S Betatesters Posts: 3115 Joined: April 28, 2005 |
My parents have fantastic ways to ruin my day. Well it's actually mostly my "mother". It's not at all surprising, if anything, I should be used to it. Everything was going along just fine until my "mother" had another one of her little freak attacks. Let me get the positives out of the way first. My parents, unlike some I know, are pretty lenient. They let me go out with friends, and access to different things like airsoft guns go unquestioned. They're only strict on grades and cleanliness, which is fine. They just like ruining it the next moment. Disrespect. My "mother" absolutely adores using the word, among other things like i dont care how my "mother" feels and some shit like that. Of course it's always the child that has problem. Of course, I'm just some heartless bastard who is self centered. Blame all your problems on me, because I'm starting not to care. I have better things to do than waste my time and intelligence with my "mother's" stupidity. So naturally, every time my "mother" tries to critizise me, I get defensive. So my "mother" calls me disrespectful and that I'm full of rage, and my "mother" throws a tantrum. Oh the irony. The worst of it was when I was told 'Oh I don't want to think how'd you treat your girlfriend." Big fucking mistake to say that you fucking bitch. You know how I'll treat her? Better than you can fucking treat anyone you know. I'll treat her better than I'll treat myself as a matter of fact, so piss off and die in a damn hole "mother". I don't understand why my father deals with this asswipe, and its worse when he actually supports my "mother". Miraculously, I still have respect for him, because I have the patience to see passed his flaws. As for my "mother", I'm not going to even waste my time. As I said, I have better things to do. I'll save my respect for someone more respectable thank you. |
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| Elite viking |
Posted: October 08, 2006 01:49 am
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 Veteran Lord Carnage Group: Old BB:S Betatesters Posts: 2471 Joined: December 16, 2004 |
I hate arguing with my parents. They use all the standard tricks at you, being disappointed with you for small things.
I'm not a very social person, I can go weeks without actually being with friends. It's not really because I'm afraid of it or something like that (ok maybe I am. Just a little  ), but it just takes some time before I actually sit there with the phone in my hand and invite someone over.And my parents really don't like me being alone. Oh no. Because if I play too much on the computer, I turn into a miserable antisocial vegetable. |
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| iliketoblowzombieheadsoff |
Posted: October 08, 2006 03:45 am
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 Ratatatatatatatatatatatattatatt Group: Members Posts: 4896 Joined: May 26, 2006 |
Ooooh... parents. Its one of the commandments to not hate your parents.
But I just cant help it.. MY DAD- Yeah, hes a nice guy. He earns lots of money from his job, everyday, no holidays. He spends it whenever I ask something. But he can get really really annoying. I hate the fact that he always takes us with him everywhere!!!! SHIT! I cant even take a fucking rest once in a FUCKING WHILE!!! Today, is another fucking shitty day for me, since I made a fucking trip to San Francisco and do absolutely FUCKING NOTHING while there. All we did was eat, and watch a damn boring airshow. Im telling you, it was FUCKING boring. I couldve been resting if I didnt go to SF today. I just hate him. He never gives us a fucking break. NEVER. MY MOM- Oh my mom.. Yeah shes a nice woman. She always provides me lunch, and buys me stuff. Yeah thats about it. But she just doesnt trust me like before. She never trusted me, ever since we came here to America. I kept on being nice and polite to her everyday. But she just doesnt appreciate it. Im tired of doing that shit..!!! I just dont know why... she lost my trust to me. Then she became more and more annoying.... Its like as if shes controlling us when we went to the Philippines. We didnt get to hang out with our cousins much, and thats what we came for. GOSH IM TIRED OF HER!!!! there... i got my steam out of me. But not all. -------------------- Current game(s): Uh uh not updatin' this no mo
Looking forward to: Some shit Name Shortcut: Zombie, Isit, Bob(not recommended) |
 
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| Hysterically Depressed |
Posted: October 08, 2006 06:54 am
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 Real zombie Nemesis Group: Members Posts: 492 Joined: July 14, 2006 |
I guess, because I've been here for a bit.. I'll let you guys know my true meaning why I'm so dark hearted sometimes or why I scream and hate my life. The reason is being is sort of a story...when I was younger my mom and dad got a divorce.. I was ok with that, it happens to the best of us. No need to freat...mom fell inlove with a guy named Dean...Dean is a Jehovah Witness. They both got married and 'they' lived happily ever after...right? My mom ever since has been forcing onto me her religion. Telling me who to belive in.. who should I respect. But I didn't listen, I shunned my back to the words that they spoke.. I didn't care less. My dad wasn't a Jehovah Witness and he said that I shouldn't listen to my mom... I want to make dad proud.. My mom wants me to worship her god, she wants me to be happy and live my afterlife with her.. I want to make mom proud... So neither what side I choose, I would always leave some other side in tears and shame. I decided to stay neutral.. not really leaning towards one side.. then they pulled.. they started to pull on me to join their each sides... I couldn't take it.. I snapped...lower and lower my self esteem grew of myself. Until one fatal day my step dad... who I've sort of grown onto told me this.. "Erik you have no reason to live unless your one of Jehovahs people" ..think happy thoughts.. think happy thoughts... We were always fighting, day or night.. no matter when. no matter where... I was almost forced to come to meetings.. I was almost told who I should worship...somethings gotta give.. somethings gotta give...and in the mix of all this complete mess... I fell inlove with the most beatiful girl I knew...but as I she had her problems with her... both alone, both hurt, both.. anguished with life.. we fell inlove. Things weren't as bad.. I would always smile...I? I Erik, smiled...My mom would get mad at me.. I didn't care...I was inlove.. Then one fateful afternoon, I walked right up to her and told her my feelings... she told me we would have to wait... just wait until both of are stresses were gone for good. And I replied (my exact words) "I will wait for you until the end of the world,endlessly" Thats why my sig has the term "endlessly?" because I am questioning myself.. and I created this account the time I told her how I felt.. and I'm still waiting.. and that doubles onto the pain of my life...I stopped smiling.. Dean started to blame me for that I was a downfall to the family. Dean said... I was a key to their household, I was a open door for Satan and his minions to roam free.. my own step dad... saying I was in partnership with the devil... how dare you.. Dean said.. in this house there is two sides God and the Devil.. try and guess what side your own...I left.. I walked away... and just fell to my knees and screamed.. I guess he was right...mabye I am just hurting the ones I loved...so I packed my stuff.. and left(this is just recently) I left so the pain would stop for the ones I loved... This is why i've been having bad dreams.....and the dreams make me a insomiac... which is slowly killing me.. but death might be worth it...I guess i was never on the side of god in the first place...I guess I was helping the devil the entire time.. helping him hurt them.. and.. thats another reason why.. I've.. uhm... well.. I tried to.. kill myself. I didn't try just for people to go "omg pay attention to him" Just to stop what I have lived withmyself... I have searched for so many people with my problem.. my exact problems.. and there was only one person I could find... the fuckin only person alive that has my exact problem.. was Marilyn Manson...Thats why he is satanic and goth.. or whatever you call it.. because he was forced to worship something he could never meet eye to eye... but... I question myself... and I'm stilling waiting... and I'm still trying to forgive myself... oh, and thats another reason I don't and never want to start a "band" because I would labeled as just another emo band.. I could truely never get my message through to anyone... I just...
Give up;; -------------------- -Endlessly?-
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| iliketoblowzombieheadsoff |
Posted: October 08, 2006 09:48 am
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Ratatatatatatatatatatatattatatt Group: Members Posts: 4896 Joined: May 26, 2006 |
 that's....... sad... -------------------- Current game(s): Uh uh not updatin' this no mo
Looking forward to: Some shit Name Shortcut: Zombie, Isit, Bob(not recommended) |
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| Hysterically Depressed |
Posted: October 08, 2006 07:27 pm
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Real zombie Nemesis Group: Members Posts: 492 Joined: July 14, 2006 |
story of my life
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| Elite viking |
Posted: October 08, 2006 07:43 pm
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Veteran Lord Carnage Group: Old BB:S Betatesters Posts: 2471 Joined: December 16, 2004 |
Life is better than death, even if it doesn't feel like it.
And you did NOT cause pain to your family, they were the ones to bring it upon you. Dean saying you're in partnership with the devil is one of the most freaky things I've ever heard. some religious people are sick. sick. In their fanaticism they want everyone to think just like they do, because their religion is right. Not everyone elses, oh nonono. Atheism for the win. The most peaceful people on earth, that's us. When did you last see an atheist starting a war? |
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| Security Corporate |
Posted: October 08, 2006 08:32 pm
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Gore God of Massacre Group: Old BB:S Betatesters Posts: 3115 Joined: April 28, 2005 |
Agreed. The only other religion I see that doesn't start shit is Buddhism Depressed, it is not your fault. They are forcing this crap upon you, and just because you don't want to believe it, they'll make you feel as terrible as possible. Don't give in man. It's really they're fault, and their problem. I know this can be hard, but you're Mom isn't on your side anymore. Forget her. If you can, try to move back in with your Dad. He seems to be the only one who'll try to help you. If anything, Jehova's witnesses are more satanic than Satan himself. They can take their extremist religion and go fuck themselves in the asshole. I'd like religion a whole lot better if it didn't cause so many fucking problems and destroy so many lives. When this all blows over, ask your girl out again. You have a lot to give Depressed, don't end that. Think about her. |
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| hunter |
Posted: October 08, 2006 08:39 pm
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 Fantasma Cazador Group: Old BB:S Betatesters Posts: 3702 Joined: December 08, 2004 |
Yeah i kinda hate what my religion(catholic) is doing and getting itself into latley. Like the pope saying those things about muslims and just getting them fired up, i know it will end up with a war. The retaliation to those comments was horrific, burning churches and they killed a nun. Also when that cartoon with the turban which had a bomb in it was published they started destroying churches then, what gives them the right to go out and do that, seriously? They are out of order and just because they think allahs real doesnt mean they can go around killing everyone, bloody extremists.
So yeah athism does sound good, or buddhism. Inner enlightement ftw! --------------------  |
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| Mic2070 |
Posted: October 08, 2006 09:03 pm
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 Doom Trooper Group: Old BB:S Betatesters Posts: 1112 Joined: July 29, 2005 |
They are right HD, you're not hurting anyone but yourself. You have your own will, don't let others manipulate you or hurt you. Freedom is one of the most important things we have in this life... about Dean, if HE says you help the devil then HE hurts you.
You don't owe anything to anyone. You have someting truly worth : freedom. Let life flow through your hands, don't try to stop it, let it flow. One day you'll realise the only thing you have to do to be happy is to open your eyes and see that you are free... Don't listen to them, even your mother... but don't do anything stupid. Just follow Your way. And... this girl... do you still see her ? If she's as depessed as you... don't let her alone. Don't let her do the same things you did. I don't know her, but she may need you. Btw guys, you're all wrong. Believe in the force. Jedi knights FTW ! (I actually really believe in it ^^) --------------------   |
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| hunter |
Posted: October 08, 2006 10:03 pm
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Fantasma Cazador Group: Old BB:S Betatesters Posts: 3702 Joined: December 08, 2004 |
You only believe in jedi and the force because you want it to be truly real. No chance!
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| Hysterically Depressed |
Posted: October 08, 2006 11:39 pm
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Real zombie Nemesis Group: Members Posts: 492 Joined: July 14, 2006 |
sigh, thanks, such happy comments. I know that I have a choice, I have to make my discussions... but the fact is, through this giant climax of mistakes after mistakes.. It just left a huge scar where my self sanity use to be. And scar's heal over time... but if you lost a leg? It wouldn't grow back... Everything you guys say is so true... everything is just so true...but I cannot heal myself from what I have felt and heard and said. It's either I have to learn to live with myself by being this way the rest of my life... or ending it, taking the easy way out... which is not so easy...
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| Nikku |
Posted: October 16, 2006 06:24 pm
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Mr. Coke Group: Old BB:S Betatesters Posts: 3114 Joined: December 12, 2004 |
iliketoblowzombiesheadoff:
Your dad doesnt sound all too bad, give him another chance. depressed: Heavy shit man, i dunno what to say. whenever i do something wrong my dad yells at my mom for it, so he doesnt have to yell at me, so i wont hate him, which doesnt make any fucking sense. -------------------- Only when you gick, will you truly fish...
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| mrchace |
Posted: October 16, 2006 08:19 pm
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 Co-Lead Elite Betatester Group: Moderators Posts: 1554 Joined: March 07, 2005 |
Ending your life is not the answer. Thats giving up, succumbing to weekness. There are people who can help you cope with your problems, people who care. I agree, you have a fucked up life, but, so do I. I mean comeone, i was raped by my best friend as a kid, and then i ended up killing him. just imagine that on your concious. I went and got help, saw some people, after a couple of months im feeling much better now. consider it -------------------- There are a few reasons I don't visit the forums as often as I used to, they are as follows: 1) I really don't have a lot of time. 2) My hardrive is failing 3) The forums honestly frustrate me to a point I cannot stand it, I've tried to help, I've tried to set people straight, but apparently, the health of these forums only matters to a few people. Thats just sad, most of us have grown along with these forums and along BB and frankly its disgusting to see the way you guys act sometimes... until you pull your acts together, don't expect to see me around much. WHERE IS MY DELETE POST FUNCTION!? |
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