HAH, fill in my shoes then we'll talk.

Today I just got a load of homework to do... and no lunch. Or else I'd cook again... ugh

Alright you all want a bitching war about who has the shittier life?


1. My mother and most of my family are hooked on some drug and I suffer for it.
2. I have been mentally and sometimes physically abused since my birth by the majority of my family

Current/Recent shit:

1. I got kicked out of my house because my druggy mother didn't like that I called her crazy.

2. I had to quit school because I couldn't afford it.

3. I only gained the papers required for me to work last week after being homeless since February.

4. The house that I am living in is getting foreclosed in about a month and I will be out on my ass or living in a cramped up 2 bedroom apt with 2 other people and a piss load of shit for my ex - step father's work.

5. I cannot get a fucking job right now because of being a highschool drop out and the economy.

6. My fucking van got repo'ed on easter.

7. My mother tried to get me arrested for supposedly hitting her when I have never hit the stupid bitch in my life.

8. I have had to stop all of my sports due to money so all of my friends that helped me to make my shit are kinda pissed and I am pissed as well seeing as I spent ages constructing my armor and practicing.

9. I have to try to help my aunt and grandparents who all just lost their houses due to the economy.

10. I have no health insurance so the few times I have gotten sick I had to lay in bed and suffer for weeks on end coughing up blood.

11. The only money I have made in months has been working under the table jobs painting houses. Using cheap paint and shit leading me to get multiple lung infections and the last one got to the point that I was coughing up blood and could not talk for more than 2 seconds before a coughing fit set in.

12. All the food I have gotten in the last month and a half has been from money I got selling all my child hood shit and all of my possessions at completely unreasonably low prices. Shit I sold SC a 30$ sphere for 5$ and a 200$ chuck of obsidian for less than 20$


Now quit saying walk a mile in my shoes due to fucking school work. There are plenty of people on here with fucked up lives and there is no point comparing it in scorn. I know that at least one person on here has a more fucked up life, and while I know we all have the need to brood about our lives, comparing shitty lives is damn near pointless. If someone here can one up me on this, I am sorry for you mate. You need to make a change in your life... seriously.


*sorry if that was useless and annoying. I have a lot of anger and resentment to get out. This may make no sense what so ever and may seem as an unprovoked over reactive response to nothing.

This post has been edited by mallic on August 27, 2009 05:12 am

13. You're a slut.

No one wants this slut though

Shit, everywhere I go there is conflict.

But I'll go ahead and type in here why my life is quite shitty right now.

My "shitty" life...:
-According to my evaluation, my self-esteem is in the down-low right now.
-My parents have mis-interpreted this problem, and now thinks I'm a fuck-up.
-Everyone else thinks, "so what? Fix it douchebag!" Hah, as much as you try to make it sound easy, it isn't. Lay off of me.
-I've a hard time looking at the bright side of life.
-Everyone else also mis-interprets my problem, and just takes it as "mear stupidity."
-Seriously, nobody has used their experience to see why I'm acting up like this.
-I suffer lots of assumptions from people. Just because I'm failing my quizzes temporarily, does not make me a total failure in life.
-Usually those who try to help will compare themselves to me, much like saying "Look at me. My confidence meter is up there. Why can't you do it like me?"
Holy shit, all I see in you is arrogance.

You must be wondering, "why are you still here complaining? Why don't you... do something about it?"
See, right there. I don't even know how to start fixing this. It's so hard to just do it yourself without support around you... hmph, yeah. That's another problem... I lack the encouragement. Please, talk to me about that.

*Just because I'm speaking like this, does not mean I want your help. I just want to share my thoughts with you all, and understand... I'm not trying to beg on my knees in front of you for help.

Wow, this is like a diary entry.
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And for current news, I just mentioned it at a post earlier... woops.

Oh yah, Arizona is fighting San Francisco in baseball. Dbacks are winning. Fudge!

This post has been edited by iliketoblowzombieheadsoff on August 27, 2009 05:20 am

Mate it could be worse. And I know this is not going to help for shit, but there are really only two ways to deal with your self esteem. One involves time and maybe some talk with a therapist which would be getting the fuck over it. The other is killing yourself, which I would not recommend.

I guess my point there is that you will either get over it eventually or you will let it destroy you. Good luck with it mate.

Thanks very much, mallic. I should stop being so eager in getting rid of it... usually happens to me so often.

i tohught current things were about what you recently did,,,

do the whining in the other thread ?

Shuddap froh. It's finished.


As of now, it's almost the weekend and I'm almost excited. That's all.

How bout you guys go to Forum Raves for that kind of stuff please?

I have a gf. shes amazing. bam bam bazam.

i got my apprenticeship spot as a electrician
imma moving to a different town then

Continuing my march advocating intellectual reasoning as opposed to fictitious beliefs.

(to those of you who happen to believe in certain religions and take offense to my comment 1. get the fuck over it I live in the USA aka the land of religious freedom 2. I am sorry but I disagree with your views please do not try to convert me because it is pointless and just motivates me to hang you from a tree and flail you until you lose your ability to speak)

Would you skold someone fro belieiving in a religion, if not then i pretty much agree with you

I don't scold for belief. I just don't want to hear it. I also think religious people have no business running our country and using their stupid hate agendas to place fear in our eyes and detract away from the larger issues. For instance, Bush deciding in the middle of a war to attack the homosexuals. Ironically not a very Christ like thing to do coming from a christian. Religion tends to make otherwise smart people do very stupid things. I know people that voted for bush (twice) just because he was christian. That is not a platform for leadership folks. You are electing people who believe the end of days is around the corner to power, and expecting them to do good work or care about your life.

However. those people who are not absolutely crazy and don't push their religion on people, I like. I would love to have the depth of faith to believe god is still here doing good work, however I see no evidence for that, and while there may have been a god who started the big bang and all life, he is dead and gone now.


And coinciding with the topic, I am currently watching more atheist comedy


(for the record I am not atheist I am agnostic and while there is a possibility that a god may have existed at some point I severely doubt it)